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2020 notes。
look i'm already running late i'll wax poetic in the plurk itself so we're jumping straight into individual notes, babey.
aki: alright you creature of absolute fucking chaos i have no idea why i always have to deal with yours being at the top. how do i count the ways that i hate you. I'M GENUINELY THINKING ABOUT HOW 2020 IS THE FIRST YEAR IN A WHILE WHERE WE HAVEN'T GOTTEN TO HANG OUT IN PERSON, and how it takes the world literally falling apart for us to not wreak havoc in one small town for a weekend. i have no idea if this is the universe's idea of balance but regardless i'm not a fan. anyway i'm not sure how to really be nice to you - it happens so rarely - but i will say again that it's fortunate that despite how much i absolutely fucking hate you, and my murderous instincts rise every time you come up in conversation - i somehow manage to love you even more than that. thank you for being in my life you gremlin flea. i don't know if gratitude is really the word that i'm looking for, but i don't know how else to articulate the feeling of knowing that there's someone in the world who i can talk to at literally time, about anything, for whatever reason, and it will almost surely spiral into either righteous indignation or laughing so hard at 3 am that we're crying from it. i think that laughter should be allowed to add years to our lives, because then you and i would certainly live forever. thank you for being the other person who also makes me spiral into a being of absolute meme shitposty destruction, because i don't know where else i'd find this kind of outlet. 2020 has been terrible, but it's also been another year of us together, so i think that's worth something. may 2021 be better, and maybe we'll descend upon the east coast before it completely fails to exist again.
al: well first i want to say that i feel like i got so much closer to you again after this year and that makes me so happy!!! it's been wonderful to get to thread with you more in murdergames - whether it be incredibly good almost a ship but not a ship cr, or when we're literally about to murder each other. the variety? we love to see it. you're always a delight to play with, whoever it is that you've got in your hands, and i feel so lucky to have been able to get cr with you!! more than that, i'm glad we finally share a canon in genshin and we're able to do a bunch of ascension screaming and woof fighting together. you're a wonderful person, al, and i'm so glad that even in a pandemic you're able to chase after what's important to you in your education and career aspirations. you're going to do amazing in everything you touch, and that's something i'm very certain of. may 2021 bless you with even greater accomplishments and celebrations ♥
alli: SPICY ALLÍ........... honestly i can't remember what it was like to not have you in servers and in our games because now that you've been with us for a while, it's confusing to think that you ever weren't with us. you bring so much laughter and joy with you into servers and games, and i'm so glad that i've had the chance to get to form cr with you over the past few murdergames!! you and siz are some of the funniest people i know, and in particular i love your dialogue and how quick some of your tags come - BUT ALSO WHEN YOU MANAGE TO STOMP ON MY HEART? i won't lie that whenever i die in mgs one of my goals is to see if i can make you cry from the letters i leave behind so now it's just fair. but really, you're such a fantastic person, and i'm so happy that we get to chat and sometimes play genshin together - and while i'm bummed i won't be around for 2 week, i'm sure the game will go great. may your 2021 be full of laughter and joy that you deserve, for all the light that you bring to us.
andie: i'm going to be honest that going from seeing you multiple times in one year to not seeing you at all has truly been a test. who else am i going to get noods with. who else am i going to spot as a weeb from a distance. who is going to have unfortunate telepathic communication in the car with me!!! i think that loss has made it all the more clear to me that i truly treasure the moments that i get with you, whether in person or over the stretch of internet between us. i know that even more than the rest of us, 2020 has been not kind to you in terms of quarantining - but (holds your hands through animal crossing) i'm glad you've made it. even if i don't always get to say it aside from the occasional shitposts in chat, i'm always here for you, and i will absolutely suplex 2021 myself if it's not nicer to you. you're amazing, andie, every single day, and when we get to meet again and it's socially safe, i will give you the biggest hug. sending you lots of love and care until that day comes! ♥
anna: ANNAPI!!!!! gods, i don't know where to start with this - but honestly i think every person needs a friend who will unapologetically call them out on their shit, and roast them with only the best intentions, and i think that for me, a lot of the time, that friend is you. i don't know if i've told you this but i think about you lightly making fun of my revelations in therapy a lot - because it really puts it into perspective for me that it's okay for me to talk about. it's validating in a way that i know that you aren't being mean, and i will cut through the tsun layers to know that it's how you show you care. and i think that you do this with a lot of things, to the point that i love that you are the buttercup of our powerpuff trio. i love you a lot, annapi, and it's crazy to me that we've only really been stuck together for almost two years now. i think that we have somehow managed to learn way too much about each other in that time but it's fine, that's friendship. it feels like every day that we get to talk is a blessing, and that's why no matter what day it is, i know that i'll get to laugh at least a few times. i don't know how many people get to say that about their quarantine existence, that they get to know for a fact that they get to spend at least little slices of time everyday laughing with someone they adore - but i do. in the coming year, i obviously hope that we get to hang out in person - i think that's the least that we're owed - but no matter what happens, i'm sure that it'll be something fun and full of light. but in general, thank you for another year together, and i'm so grateful that we got to spend it together. you're stuck with me for a long time, but i hope that your 2021 is wonderful enough to make up for that. also before i forget there's another note at the end for you, so scroll down to read it.
ara: thinks about all the times that we said that we hate each other over the past couple of months. (gently wipes those from the board) anyway- no i'm just kidding sdlkfjsdf. even every time that i said that i hate you it was with so much affection because i couldn't stand the sheer romance of what we were creating. I KEEP THINKING ABOUT HOW BADLY WE WANTED TO DO ROMANTIC STABS AND THEN WE MANAGED TO FOREGO THE STABS PART BUT WE GOT ROMANCE??? HOW DID THIS HAPPEN TO US, ARA, WE'RE GOOD PEOPLE. but okay wipes tears sdlkfj let me just say that - for one, thank you, for apparently proving me wrong when i said that soo-won was unshippable. thank you for that,, but also thank you for some incredibly good threads and absolutely fantastic writing that we got to do together this year. even with all the heartache every single tag was worth it, even if it was full of secrets and drama. you continue to hold the bearcells and the braincells for us all, and i look forward to seeing what cr we get in the future! in general, thank you for being such a supportive and fantastic friend - even though you are just as capable of chaos as the rest of us (SHINOBU TAKING? HERSELF OUT? HELLO?) i think often that you are the last sane man holding us together, or trying to encourage more chaos and letting us run wild. either way, we'd be lost without you! thank you for being such a fantastic friend, ara, and i hope to see you again in 2021 when we will undoubtedly give you more child leashes to hold.
ari: SWEET SWEET ARI, i'm so glad that another year has passed since we've gotten to be friends because that's simply more time that i've gotten to spend with you. it's so wild to me that it's so long ago now since we got to meet up in new york and eat some of the wildest and also best ice cream i've had. i know that this year has also given you a fair number of trials, even in relation to everyone else, and i just wanted to say that you're a rock star for handling all of it. i hope that life deals you a kinder hand soon, because for all the sweetness and care that you show others, i think that you deserve some returned to you. thank you for all the fantastic threads that we've had (LET USAGI FIND LOVE) and also all the links you yeet my way that make me smile sdlkjf. i hope that 2021 gives you more reasons to smile too, and i'm just counting myself lucky that i get to spend more days with a friend like you at my side
becks: BECKS THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A WILD ONE, AND ALSO CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR VACCINATION!!!! i'm in tears, thank you for being the first spot of hope that maybe we'll all get on your level, but also i'm so glad that you've been safe throughout the year and i hope that you will get to continue in the comfort for your home for a while longer still. it's been a delight to get to play with you and talk with you over the course of the year, and you'll be among the first to know once i trip and fall back into the tocs trap that i ended up getting into partially because of your love for ash. you're always so engaging to thread with, and i also love the chaos that comes with your tags and your shitposts in the server. one of these days we will ship for real, and in that moment we will become so powerful that no one will be able to hold us. maybe even in 2021!! until then, i wanted to say that i'm so happy for your friendship and hope that we will continue to be friends for a long time!
blair: DARLING BLAIR!!! well first i want to say that i miss being in a game with you - but that doesn't stop me from enjoying secondhand everything that you post on your plurk. i'm so glad that you and kosy are harming each other regularly now, because that's what friendship is truly about. but i also want to say that i'm really grateful that we're still in touch after all this time, and i'm really glad that you're in my life. whether it be when we're rping stonks - who are truly goals - or just talking about genshin or enstars, i'm so glad when we get to chat. even though i TRULY wish that i could actually play genshin with you but that's waiting on whenever they open up the servers. you're a fun, engaging person who is also an incredible writer, and you always manage to bring your characters to life wherever they are and wherever you take them. i treasure your friendship after all these years - we've really known each other for a while, wow - and i consider myself lucky to get to know you for even longer. may your 2021 bless you with unbreakable wifi and everything you could ever want!
boba: honestly i can't believe that madeon was one of the last concerts that i went to before quarantine and that still might've been in 2019 and i don't even remember - but boba i love and miss you so dearly!! so much of this year has been peppered with our chances to talk with each other, whether it be trading links about madeon's crazy conspiracy treasure hunt or you helping with the slow but sure descent i've made into fate/. you're a friend that i've had for such a long time now, and i treasure your presence every single time i get the honor of being in it. you're funny, personable, straight to the point, and i love hearing your insights about literally anything. we need to have a talk about fe3h one of these days too since you're making your way through that. you're a wonderful friend and i love you dearly, and i'm so glad i get to make it to 2021 with you. i hope that the new year brings us together again soon!
britt: GODS I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! AAAAAAAA i just got to your name and immediately had to touch the ground because i thought about how we were supposed to hang out that day before lockdown......... when will we go eat delicious food, when will we go outlet shopping, when will we go on all the adventures we're meant to go on! it's been a hard year without you britt, and i dearly miss seeing you more regularly. i think of you every time i wander in the direction of coco ichibanya, but i also am glad that we've been able to stay in touch with the murder circuit, even if it's just us stabbing each other (sometimes literally?) with soo-won and yona. it was so good to get to be your castmate again, and it's always a blessing to be able to write with you considering that you have such an insane talent for being able to harm people. i know that no matter where you are, you're hurting people in the best ways, and being an even better friend than that. i hope that we get to hang out again soon, because i too need my dose of being with britt. see you in 2021 or i will actually turn into dust trying!!
cola: nothing will ever be funnier than you and escha not realizing that you could've had an ot3 until nearly a year later, i just need to get that out of the way because i just started to smile thinking about it - but also that's just the sort of response you get out of people, cola! you make them smile, because you're a sweet soul with a fantastic knack for comedic timing even if you might not realize. you always come in so excitedly about homewrecking or spamming your emote in the redacted server, and it would always manage to startle a laugh out of me. you're such a wonderful person to talk to and thread with, and i'm so lucky that we've gotten to know each other over the past two years - wow two years!! i know that covid knocked all of us on our asses academically, but i'm so glad that you made a choice to take care of yourself, because looking out for yourself is truly the most important thing that you can do. whenever you're up for tackling school and life again, i'm sure you'll do great, and everyone will be shaking upon your triumphant return. i hope 2021 gives you a much better hand than we've all been dealt, and i look forward to your success!
crystal: CRYSTAL I FEEL LIKE WE HAVE GOTTEN SO MUCH CLOSER OVER THE COURSE OF THIS YEAR SLKDJF and i am so genuinely, delightfully happy over it. i love being blessed with cr with you in games, because you have a love for your characters that is like. wildly contagious. i think sometimes about how you were worried since hansa is a bit more obscure than your other choices and yet we all came out deeply stanning this robot priest simply because you played him so dynamically and were so excited about sharing him with us, and i'm so glad that you did!! i admire your ability to take that passion for all your characters - hansa, illumi, anaido, lovecraft - and just generating so much content for them that your account shows up immediately in a google search. you are so powerful. but you truly brighten up my days so many times, and i love how excited you get about cr and the people that you play with, and the characters that they play too. it genuinely makes me feel honored when i can manage to get you excited for something the same way that i get excited for something you love. may 2021 give us a bunch more to be excited about!!
dearest: well here we are again, as we are every year.
it's hard for me to find words that i haven't said before, but i suppose it's not that difficult because i think it's also worth saying that i will endlessly admire you, and everything that you manage to do. we've known each other for so long now, and it's so wild to think that we've gone through high school, college, college again, and then now we're both in our adult lives and managing full time jobs?? hello? and yet when i think about on all those years together, it makes me smile, knowing that our friendship has been a constant. it's a fortunate and lucky thing, to know that there's someone that i've known for this long, and i think often that my life would be so different if we never met when we did. so i'm going to count my blessings, and say that i'm grateful for you this year, as i'm grateful for you every year. thank you for being my writing buddy, thank you for devouring akayona with me, thank you for also murdering with me again and i hope that you'll continue to murder with us many times in the future because i'm excited every single time i get to share something with you. it's been a wild set of years, dearest, and now we're here! i figure that 2020 has been the toughest year on record, so 2021 will hopefully be a breeze, right? regardless, i know that you've been slamming through crunch and other things, so i can only hope that a break is on the horizon for you - a very well-deserved one at that. whatever your goals and aspirations are, i know that you'll meet them - and even though this year was hardly perfect by any measure, i think that because you were the one who got through it - it was still good. i love you so much, and i will continue to love you into 2021 and beyond - may it bless you with only the best that life has to offer.
eli: first off, i just want to say that i think that being able to reach out to friends individually in the middle of a pandemic, keeping up those relationships and making sure that they know they're in your thoughts, is a blessing and a gift. it's a skill that is way too scarce, and you are one of the few masters of it in the world. i think that you're a wonderful person eli, and your type of care shines through in the way that you check in with friends, ask about their lives, and i truly admire that about you and wish i was better at it myself so i could return the favor. but i just wanted to let you know that during this year when we're all a bit more isolated, it's something that's appreciated, even if it's not always noted out loud. i love you a whole lot, and i wish that i could see you again and give you a big hug, but i just want to generally express that you're such a wonderful person and i consider myself sincerely lucky to be able to call you a friend. thank you for being a part of my life, and i love you endlessly. may 2021 be kinder, and we get to hang out more! that's the real dream but i have faith that we'll be able to make it into reality.
flurry: YOU KNOW THE WEIRDEST THING FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT IS THAT THIS TIME LAST YEAR, WE DIDN'T KNOW EACH OTHER. i only knew you by some weird moment when anna called francy by your name on accident and we just emoted in confusion sdlkfjsdf. but then i got to meet you in frac, and then get to know you more over time, and i consider myself so lucky for that opportunity. you're a great person, flurry, from the way that you're so active and fun to get cr with, but also the general chaotic and friendly energy that you bring with you wherever you go. i recognize that the first time we met, i called your characters recyclable trash, and then we just went from there!! thank you for all the laughs, the tears, and the year that i've gotten to know you. i'm so glad we were able to celebrate your second birthday together, and i will just determinedly make it so that 2021 is even better than 2020 in every way imaginable! i love talking to you and i'm so lucky that i've gotten to know you, and i look forward to more time together (you voice) wehehehe. may 2021 bring on the shitposts and chaos!
francy: if you go to bed before you read this i'm gonna be so grumpy oh my gOD franchy - but okay, i have to say, you deserve reparations for dealing with me this year. i think i've said this before, but since you're one of the people closest to me, that also makes you someone who endures me the most, and i truly think that you deserve compensation for this. i will probably buy you so many things when we go to japan - because we are going to go to japan. we're gonna go to japan, and we're going to do all the cosplays we planned, and we're going to truly cash in on every single plan that we've made, because i treasure all of them. even if it's not going to be for a while, i want you to know how much all of these things mean to me - because the idea of having things to look forward to in the future, and things that i get to share with you - as evidenced by start-up, sometimes that's literally what gets me out of bed in the mornings. you're a good friend - such a good friend that it's hard to put into words, because i know for a fact that you will do so many things for the people you love, and truly go the distance in terms of spoiling them and making sure that they're happy. so i want to do the same in return, and i will literally move heaven and earth to make sure that you're happy, whenever i can, for as long as i can. you're dear to me in ways that are hard to describe, but i know for a fact that i'm a much happier person now that i know you, and since we've gotten handcuffed together. (i say as if i did not slap the handcuffs on myself.) so all i can say is - through the ups and downs, and when life is easy breezy and also when it's not, i'm so glad that we can spend it together. i love you so much, and i hope that 2021 sets us free so we can make good on everything we intended to do and then some. you deserve it, and so i'll make sure that you get it. happy new year! and also before i forget, there's a note for you at the end, so scroll down.
freshy: BEAUTIFUL PERFECT FRESHY so honestly i feel like i should share that while it's true that i disappear from plurk for months at a time because of murder, i consider myself genuinely fortunate that i still have you as a friend even if it's just looking at each other's plurks on occasion and commenting. i like just knowing how your life is going, and hoping that it treats you well, and all the adventures you get to go on - or what fantastic thing you'll do next with your hair or nails because your aesthetic is truly top notch. yet whenever i'm just talking idly with friends and you come up in conversation, all i can do is talk uselessly about how much i love you, and how fantastic i think that you are. it's just glowing reviews all around to be honest. but you're constantly a bright spot on my timeline, and i treasure our friendship. i hope that your 2021 is only filled with more good things, and more lovingly mappa-animated jjk as the fire continues to spread across your timeline. ♥ i hope that 2021 blesses you in so many ways, including more photo op chances for your megloomy because they make my heart swell.
gigi: i'm going to be very honest with you, it's really hard for me to remember time and when things happened - but i'm pretty sure you've been in california for over a year now, right? and i remember you saying that even though shit sucks and miss rona screwed us all over - you did end up where you wanted to be at this point in your life, and for that, i'm really happy for you. i remember last christmas we got boba and just talked about life for a while, and you truly made some big transitions in your life. even though things have been going up and down - i think that you've done a more than admirable job of reaching out and grabbing exactly what you wanted. you got the job you wanted, you have an apartment with someone you love, and you have a twitter timeline full of cat photos. i say this as lovingly as possible, but you're doing LA millennial life really well LMFAO. it's been a delight to get to watch you progress through life this year, and i wish only that i could do more for you - but you're honestly doing great all your own tbh. thank you for your friendship and all the laughs, gigi, and i look forward to seeing you again in 2021! i'm certain that no matter what comes, you'll be able to claw your way to the top - but i will also still hope that the coming year is good to you in all the ways that you deserve.
jae: you know, now that i think about it, i think 2020 is genuinely going to be redeemed for me because i realized that 2020 is the year that i got to truly appreciate zenitsu. for anyone who wonders whether or not that'd be enough to keep me afloat, all i can say is that jae's zenitsu is truly one of the greatest gifts that i've ever been able to receive. in truth, i think that you have a way with your characters that is truly amazing, jae. you're so dedicated about everything that you do with them, down to the details, and i see it not only in your tl;crs that i read every single one of, but also in the way that you tag and then reveal later in your plurk that the tiny minutiae of what is or isn't said is so meaningful. you've done it with just about every single characters that you've played since i met you, and it's something in your writing that i find so enchanting and captivating - sort of like a magic trick where you reveal everything at the end and my jaw drops in astonishment. not to mention you're an incredible friend who i've been lucky to know for over a decade now - how!! - and i still hold onto my feelings of admiration for you that i've held since we met. jae is truly so cool, and i hope that 2021 is better for you all around - and you get to sleep and relax more!! thank you for all that you do, because i don't know if i ever express it to you enough.
jan: MY SWEETEST JAN!!!! MY BELOVED JAN!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaAAAAAA i don't even know how to start this one sdlkfjsf i'm also going to be honest that given how long we've known each other, i also have no fucking clue how much i have left to say that i haven't said before, it's really funny. but okay let's see, let me at least try - this year i wanted to say congratulations and also thank you for running your first murdergame! jan as a mod is so fucking powerful, and now i am determined to also get to mod with you one day. but more than that, and the endless threads that we managed to rack up together, i want to articulate how grateful i am to have you in my life after all this time. it's so wild. i'm glad that we also finally share an obsession in genshin, and i get to see how intense you are up close in the way that you grind for artifacts and leave us all in the dust. jan is the true dps. it's that sort of passion that you manage to conjure up, and the way that i watch as you manage to prove your skill in literally everything that you pick up, for no reason other than you love the source material that much. it's something about you that i find genuinely impressive every time, even after all these years. i don't know if you realize the force of nature that you are, but as keeper of the braincells, i admire you constantly and i am so glad to have you in my life. thank you for another wonderful year together, jan, and i look forward to all the rest that we're going to have, because at this point you're never going to shake me. i love you, and may your new year grant you the artifacts and boss drops you want! and also other good fortune, yea.
kami: OH MISS SPORTS PROTAG OF MY LIFE HOW DEARLY I MISS YOU!!!!! kami it's so wild to me because now i just realized in horror that i'm not sure when the last time i saw you was? that's scary, and i absolutely don't like it at all, lays on the ground. your presence has been dearly missed, and i wish i could articulate all the ways in which i miss hanging out with you but there's just way too many to list. i know that it's been a really wild for you with miss rona and so much uncertainty, i hope that you're doing as well as humanly can be, but mostly i just wanted to say that i hope that the new year is kinder and i get to see you again soon. i still love seeing you on twitter and all the haikyuu that you put on my timeline, it truly feels like coming home and the constant deluge of hinata lovemail hours always makes me smile. i hope that we get to see each other again in the new year and hang out properly, even if it's just sitting around and watching anime and enjoying each other's company again. i hope that you get a lot of good fortune in the new year, and that it blesses you with everything you could want and more ♥ love you lots and hopefully see you soon
kat: I CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT HOW FINDING YOU IN THE HYPMIC FANDOM WAS ONE OF THE WILDEST THINGS but also that i'm so glad that i did! over the year i've only gotten to admire your ability to churn out fics like no one's business, and be gently astonished at the sheer quality of every single one. your dedication to the gendice agenda is truly admirable and i applaud you every single day for what you contribute to the fandom. in general, i also think myself so lucky to be able to count on someone so smart, so capable, so kind, and so skilled among the people that i get to chat with about the craft and process of writing fanfic. you supported me so much when i was even just thinking about putting my project out there again, and i can't thank you enough for that. in all the years that i've known you, you've always been so encouraging and sweet and kind kat, and i'm glad that no matter what, the years will never be able to take that from you. may 2021 give you even more good, exciting things that make your heart jump like a gambler and a liar ♥
kes: KES I ALREADY MISS YOU!!!! it's so wild to me that fanime 2019 feels so fucking far away now, and i miss hanging out with you so much even though so much of it was also apologizing for the chaos that you had to endure. even still, i just wanted to say thank you for all the times that you spare a word for me or just chat with me about anything, or even leave me fanart that makes me ♥♥ i appreciate it so much, and it always brightens up my day when we get to talk to each other. whether it be about dreams or your sheep or what you're working on translating, i'm so glad when you share it with me because it makes me happy to know that you're happy. i hope that we get to see each other again in 2021, but even if we don't, i hope that so many good things come your way.
kia: honestly if anyone deserves to literally dropkick 2020 in the face, i would say it'd be you. even with as difficult as this year has been, you made it, kia! and i'm so, so glad. so i hope that your reparations come in the form of an ssr in fgo tonight, but until then, i just want to express how lucky i am to have you in my life. you're bright, brilliant, talented, patient, and so many other wonderful things that it's hard to find words for them all. whether it be the sheer amount of fic that you manage to write - i am deeply impressed everyday of my life - or the way that you throw your all into murdergames, you really manage to take the world by storm. i'm so glad that we were able to play together in a game again after all these years, and i only hope that we'll get to play together some more in the future! even before redacted started, i remember running around excitedly chattering about your return and how excited i was for my friends to be friends with each other. i hope that you managed to feel at home with us too! thank you for being my friend all these years, kia, and i'm so glad that we're still together. may 2021 bring you endless blessings, and also diluc. take it easy, and treat yourself to kindness and relaxation soon!
kori: i miss you, kori! i keep thinking about how as soon as miss rona disappears, i would love to see you again if you could ever visit us in LA or i might finally head over to your part of the country for a con or two, just because i want to hang out with you again. i haven't seen you since your haircut and all the different eras of hair dye, and i feel like i must behold your truly phenomenal aesthetic for myself in person one of these days. even though we don't share fandoms as much anymore, i still treasure all the times we do get to chat, whether it be about hypmic or enstars or just anything else. you're dear to my heart, and i know that it's been a pretty wild year for all of us, and life keeps handing you ups and downs. but i also wanted to express that i still support you, and i read all your tweets, and i would just give you the biggest hug if i could. you're still so dazzling and smart and talented and funny, and i hope that 2021 gives you a chance to shine like you deserve.
kosy: MY BAE, MY DARLING, MY SWEETEST HEART!!!!! well for one, i just want to say - i'm glad that you're back. i'm glad that you've managed to find your groove and rhythm in games, and i'm so glad that even though i have a tendency to pull a disappearing act for murdergames, you are still here when i return. obviously life comes first, but i'm also not going to hide that i missed you while you were gone. even as you try to enable me to trail after you into your games, i just find myself smiling because i love every single conversation that we get to have, even if a lot of the time i'm also enabling you into a new canon that i want you to play with me sldkfjsdf. BUT LISTEN, I'M GREEDY, AND I LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH YOU!!! you're funny, smart, sweet, and one of my favorite people on this planet. thank you for everything that you've done for me over this year, whether it be drawing a piece of art that i want to FRAME AND SHOVE MY FACE INTO, or just sparing a kind word. it delights me to see you running around with your enstars and your wizards that are doomed to die soon. seeing you happy just manages to make me so unfathomably happy. even if we don't get to share all that many games in the future, i just want to say that my life is better when you're in it, and i'm so glad we're still together after all these years. may 2021 be a beautiful year for you, and bring you endless happiness! and also some sleep! please sleep!
kyuu: the way i'm like 'damn i hope that kyuu got something to cleanse the salt before 2020 ends' but i'm also like honestly ending 2020 salty would also be a decent way to sum up this year alkjdfads.f THAT SAID I HOPE REGARDLESS THAT YOU WERE ABLE TO HAVE A NICE RELAXING LAST DAY OF DUMPSTERFIRE BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE!! i'm so glad that we were able to play together this year kyuu, and i am always in awe of the sheer amount of heartbreak you can leave behind you what the fuck. thank you for running crau this year to give us all a place to totally lose our fucking minds, and i am genuinely fearful of the next time you mod because of what you're capable of. maybe one day we'll even get to mod together!! you're always such a great friend, and a gift to have in games. i hope that 2021 delivers all the tropes you could possibly want, and that we can play a few together too!!
lisa: LISA MADE IT TO MURDER, LISA MADE IT TO MURDER!!!!! i'm thinking about how it's been a literal year since we first had that discussion in an ice cream shop when i was visiting, but i'm so so so happy that you finally made it - and yOU DID SO GOOD IN YOUR FIRST MURDERGAME, IT'S WILD. you did so much research for all of us, it was delightful. and then you lived the dream of being scapegoated, i think about how jealous everyone was and it's so funny to me. i know quarantine has been hellish and 2020 has been hellish but i'm so glad that i got an opportunity to hang out with you again - albeit virtually. tagging with you and watching you get your proverbial sea legs in the murdergame circuit was a delight, and i can only hope you'll continue to join us in the future. you still bring the same fun, amazing, infectious chaotic energy as you did in recolle, when one of my fondest memories is still arm tots as well as bucky suplexing a cow. wild times. you bring a party with you wherever you go lisa, and i admire your skill whether it's in truly wild writing or your art and your ability to deep dive into everything you do. may 2021 set you free so you can stretch your limbs as far out as you want again!!
marie: HONESTLY MARIE, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. and i just couldn't let time pass without acknowledging it. you are one of the most hardworking, incredible, and just - truly admirable people that i know. whether it be your job, your home improvement saga (when will you have an hgtv show i am waiting), or your writing, you are always on the go, and you know what works for you - and i think that genuine act of knowing yourself? that's something amazing. i know that 2020's been a wild ride of ups and downs for all of us, but i think it's especially been something for you - and i hope that when 2021 and miss rona both grant us freedom, you'll be able to stretch your legs and take up all the space you rightfully deserve. because you work so hard, i honestly expect the world to crumble at your feet from how powerful you are. i hope that you manage to accomplish every happiness and i also hope that i will get to be there with you. thank you for your SHEER ACCOMPLICE-LEVEL SKILL in getting me into fate/, and all the threads that we've had in games since then, and all the threads we will surely have in the future. whether it be in writing or as a friend, i think that i'm so lucky to know you, and i deeply look forward to more time together in the coming years. please move to california i'm waiting
mira: one of these days i'm going to get all your merlin lore, i will just sit down and ask you to go off like a netflix comedy special and i will enjoy every single moment- bUT UNTIL THEN!!! given how wildly i appear and disappear on plurk, i just want to say that i'm grateful for your friendship. it took me a second to realize that we've known each other since, what, cerealia?? when you were playing grell? was it even before then? well regardless it's wild for me to think that we've been friends for so long, and i can always count on you to always have impeccable taste in characters as well as tropes. the number of times that we just clutch each other's hands and bemoan the tropes we want to play - i feel it in my heart. thank you for being a steadfast friend through all these years and i'm so glad that i've gotten to spend another year with you, even if this year has been a dumpsterfire. may next year be better, and i look forward to spending more time with you!!
nat: 2020 is a dumpsterfire and i would like for it to end for a lot of reasons, but even though the new year is coming, i would like to wish for not only the new year to be kind to you, but every single day that follows after. nat you're one of the most hardworking people that i know, and you put so much of yourself into everything that you do. you care so much for your friends, you get so passionate about your interests and animation, and you will truly put your heart into what falls into your hands. even though i know that this year has been wild with moving and also the hurricane that got thrown at you, i also truly believe that someone like you - someone who is so sincere, who is so considerate, and so dear - will be able to succeed in the future. i just hope that life makes it easier for you, and if there's anything more that your friends can do for you, i hope you'll tell us too. regardless, thank you for all the chats that we've gotten to have over this year, and i hope that we'll be able to see each other again soon! we'll get enough dumplings for you me and gigi and make a day out of it. your presence is one that i'm glad that i've gotten a few times this year, but i do wish that we could've gotten to hang out even more than that. i love you a whole lot, and i look forward to a much better 2021 - even if i have to wrestle it down and make it be good to you with my own two hands.
nu: 💞💞💞💞 NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU 💞💞💞💞 - okay at this point i think i just get a kick out of knowing that you're absolutely making a face and want to tell me to die sldkjfsdflsjkdf BUT ALSO MY LOVEMAIL IS TRUE!!! IT'S SO TRUE!!!!!! i keep thinking about how we didn't even know each other before like - what. months ago? we've only known each other for half a year and i am so sure that you hate me and it's so funny sdljkfsdf. BUT LISTEN, I THINK THAT'S JUST THE LEVEL OF FRIENDSHIP THAT WE HIT INSTANTLY!!!! I ACTIVATE YOUR FIGHT OR FIGHT INSTINCT, AND I ACCEPT THIS. because in all honesty, i really, really am so glad that i've met you. thank you for always making me laugh, and even though we make jokes about you stealing my homework in murdergames, i also think that it wouldn't feel right if we didn't get ride or die cr. i will be truly confused when we are no longer able to somehow fall into incredibly close cr by week 1. but i'm thankful for crau for bringing us together, because i also treasure your friendship when we're not literally planning murder together. you're someone who is so smart, who is so resourceful, who is so hilarious and kind even though you're a total tsundere about it. thank you for being your straightforward self because i love talking about literally anything with you. it took the literal world falling apart for us to meet, and yet i find myself grateful because you're one of the greatest gifts that i was able to receive this year. thank you for being my friend, nu, even if you will deny it forever. i'm grateful for your presence, and i hope that you understand we'll be stuck together for a long time to come.
pixi: i think about how keqing blesssed you for the new year and honestly i'm so glad that you're getting to enjoy having a 5* character sdlkfjsdf I TRULY HOPE THAT YOU MANAGE TO GET BETTER MATS AND ARTIFACTS IN THE NEW YEAR, MAYBE THAT'S WHAT MY HOPE WILL BE FOR YOU LMFAO but okay no in all seriousness i'm so glad that we're friends, pixi. i'm grateful for you even though we hilariously are not able to remember when we met sometimes - i feel like it's cerealia, i really do - but i think it also says something about how comfortable it is to think about having you in my life for even longer than that. i appreciate the effort and hard work that you put into everything, and also the camaraderie of having someone else go through Academia(tm) even during this time. you really throw yourself into everything that you love pixi, whether that be your fanfic works or your love for childe genshin impact or when you flood your timeline with ice skating - and i enjoy every single moment, and want to be in the front row seat every time. thank you for being a blessing in my life, and i hope you get many blessings in 2021 in turn. (including artifacts and better weapon drops)
ray: RAY IT'S SUCH A WILD THING TO LOOK ON THE FACT THAT WE MET IRL OVER A YEAR AGO and we were supposed to meet again in may but it's fine, that's just been pushed off for the future. obviously i wish miss rona didn't get in the way, but i'm still so glad for the times that we get to spend together in the digital sphere too. thank you for playing kara and lili with me in crau as they managed to accomplish so many wild relationship hurdles and somehow end up being Romance(tm) despite all expectations. sometimes you play characters who are perfect together even tho you never fuckin expected it i guess!! you're always so fun to write with, with the level of emotion and heartache that you put into everything, and a joy to plot with. i look forward to seeing what other types of cr we get in the future too! i hope that 2021 is a blessed time and you have a great time modding too. i'm rooting for you, and i look forward to having another year of friendship! ♥
sib: so you sent me this really sweet message earlier today and i've been too busy working on these to really respond sO I'M GOING TO RESPOND HERE LMFAOSDLKFJ. and it's to say this: sib, i'm really glad we're friends. i think that there are moments where friendship can get rough, and i've got my own flaws of being too direct and confrontational, but you've never held it against me and we've always been able to work everything out. i think it's for those reasons, that we're able to talk about stuff and we're both willing to discuss blips with each other that we're going to be friends for a really long time - because i do think that friendship takes work and, i just want you to know that even while i say this, i don't think that friendship with you is hard at all. i think that i'm lucky to get to call you a friend, because not only do you gas me up like no other like wow i think i've gotten an ego just from how nice you are to me, but also because you yourself are smart, funny, and i'm not joking that i'd literally watch a netflix special of you just giving your opinions on other people's characters because you are so funny. thank you for being in my life, and even though i know that this year has been a weird one for a lot of us, i do want to articulate that i think that you've been doing well to get through it. i love you a lot, and i hope that we get to hang out irl again soon - but until then, thank you for being someone i can talk about otomes with, and someone that i can talk to about so many different things past that. may 2021 be better for you, in every single way!
sipp: i think about how you said that you wanted to get more cr in redacted than we had in crau and i'm just like well! mission accomplished, huh!! and i feel so glad for it - because you're always a delight in whatever game we share, sipp. you're involved, friendly, sincere, and share so much with every single person that you interact with. i love getting to talk with you in chat and recount stories, even if some of your stories make me want to leap to your defense and dunk every single person who's ever been mean to you. because you are so open-hearted, so welcoming, and so hardworking and kind that i think that you only deserve the best at all times. getting to have closer cr with you and more time to talk with you and absorb all your meta only made me even happier. thank you for making my experience in the game so good, but also just for being a great friend during redacted and every game that came before it. you're someone who can truly affect the mood of the room once you enter, and always for the better. i hope that your 2021 is a good one and you get more time to rest and relax!
sisi: well hello my enfp education sister in arms - in all honesty sisi, you're one of the few people who, when i talk about things like education or extroversion or wanting to be productivity or losing my mind in quarantine, you're one of the few people who i truly trust to just... get it. to understand what a fire this year has been, and the specific way it's been hell for people like us, and that's why i want to just hold your hand and say - i'm glad we're both still here. i'm glad we made it this far, and i'm glad that we made it at least part of the way together. even through all the aches of not seeing the people that we want to see, and not having our passions to fall back on, we've found new ones - and i think that it's a testament to your strength. when i think about 2021 and the hopes that it'll bring, i hope that you'll also take some of this kindness you're learning to extend to yourself, and you bring it forward with you. i hope that the new year is infinitely better than this one, and i hope that you will take the next steps with confidence and hope. you'll get back to where you want to be in no time, i'm sure, but until then, i'm glad we've met it to this point together. take care, and have a peaceful new year!
siz: honestly let's start with thanks for being one of the funniest people i've ever met, because i can't count the number of times that i've just burst into laughter since you joined us in the murder circuit. i told alli the same thing but i genuinely feel like you've always been with us, and i can't think of a time in which you weren't. thank you for always being someone who works so hard with us, siz, whether it be in your activity in us getting stuff done, or just really grinding into the shitpost of things. i admire your work ethic and your ability to help organize and lead, and i'm so bummed that i won't be able to make it to 2 week but i'm sure that your modding efforts will go great and i hope that i get the chance to play in one of your games in the future. but in general, i'm so glad that i've gotten to know you and play with you more, because writing with you and chatting with you are both incredible joys. i love reading your meta and watching you go through character thought processes, because i always find it so interesting. i hope that we get to continue to play together in the coming year, and i hope that 2021 brings you countless treasures and joys!
snow: SNOW IT'S BEEN SO GOOD TO HAVE YOU IN MY RP SPHERE AGAIN!! i'm so glad that you were able to join us with frac and then even moreso in redacted! you did so good for your first murdergame, bravo in your murder and getting away with it! i look forward to seeing you as a mod too - i think you'll have a lot of fun and i'm cheering you on! i appreciated all the threads that we got to have and your eagerness and dealing with me running toward you for threads just because i wanted to get to know the infamous hua cheng even more. i look forward to threading with you even more in future games you join us in, and i'm glad that you were able to join our little party. congratulations again on your engagement, and i hope that you have a truly blessed 2021 that manages to knock 2020 out of the water because you deserve it!
teej: THANKS FOR KILLING ME IN 2020, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD START THERE BECAUSE IT WAS A WILD RIDE TO BE IN MURDERGAMES FOR YEARS AND I WOULD ONLY DIE WHEN I PUT A HIT ON MYSELF LMFAO. but in all seriousness thank you for also running crau in 2020 and giving us a home to scream in the chaos of the pandemic and the quarantine, it was truly a blessed chance for all our shitposts to fester and for us to have a truly chaotic time. you did a great job running the game and i'm sure you'll do great running spring, i'm so excited. you're always so fun to thread with teej, and i'm glad that we've also been friends for this long since even before recolle holy shit. the entire time you've always been one of the most earnest, straightforward, and fantastic people i've ever gotten to meet. thank you for being a steadfast friend with ideas that are both evil and hilarious, and i look forward to the countless ways you can bad end mgs in the future. i love having you in my life and want to thank you for letting me be in yours - 2020 has definitely been a year of wild rides and transitions, and i know that your future is bright! may 2021 kick even more ass.
tsubo: SWEET DARLING PERFECT TSUBO!!!!!!!! goodness gracious - i think often about how sometimes i disappear off plurk for months at a time and then come back for a few months at a time, but every time i do, i am lucky enough to catch you being thoughtful, encouraging, and uplifting to every single person you meet. i think that you're someone that not a lot of people get to meet - and i wonder if i've said this before - but i think that you still, even in a hickety hecking pandemic and trashfire year that is 2020, manage to be a bright spot. and i don't say this to put any kind of pressure on you, because i think it's something about you that comes naturally. i think that you share so much warmth, and kindness, and sincerity with people that it flows out like a fountain, and i always find myself bashful and touched in the face of it. i think often that just talking to you for a few moments can make me smile all day, and i'm lucky for it. i know for a fact that there's no chance i'm the only person you make feel that way. i only hope that in the future, we as your friends can make you feel that way too, because you deserve to be cared for, and to have all the fortune that you bless others with. i love you so much tsubo and i probably don't say it enough, but i do hope that your 2021 is full of light and good things, because if anyone's earned it, it's you.
ty: TY YOU'RE ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE THAT I ACTUALLY GOT TO SEE A FEW TIMES THIS YEAR AND I CAN SAY FOR A FACT THAT THOSE TIMES WERE NOT NEARLY ENOUGH!!! i feel like i've withered away a little with not being able to see you in person, and we'll just have to make up for it in 2021. i know that it's been a wild year in a couple of different ways, between pandemic hitting during blues, or all the nonsense rl shit we've been dealing with, and all the transitions before then and now - but i just want to say that i think you are still one of the most resilient, steadfast, and resourceful people that i know. i think that you are someone who works hard through everything, and i can only hope that 2021 will make it so that you can rest, so that you can be taken care of for a little while instead of always having to take care of everyone else. i love you dearly, and i'm so glad that you're in my life, and after watching you work so hard for years on end, i'm ready to fund your vacation myself tbh. thank you for everything you've done and i hope that in the future we as your friends can do more for you too. treat yourself in the new year, and i hope 2021 treats you well too!!
yaywon: (goofy voice) aw shucks......... honestly i don't know what words can be said about you yaywon because you are a fucking hurricane and i love you so much it's hard to articulate in the english language LMFAO. I FEEL LIKE YOU ARE JUST ONE OF THE MOST CHAOTIC PEOPLE IVE EVER KNOWN AND THAT'S SAYING SOMETHING WHEN AKI IS RIGHT THERE - but i also admire the way that you literally storm into people's lives and deposit heaps of validation and kindness to all of them. it's honestly very okuni of you, now that i think about it. but your plurks always swell up in comments because you are such an open, inviting, hilarious person, and you always engage with people outside of that too. you're someone where i genuinely feel like you have an investment in my life, and those are the types of people that are hard to come by. i'm invested in yours too. i'm invested in your happiness, and your joy, and your hopes and your dreams bc i hope all of them come true. because we're two but we're one, and i'm so, so lucky to know you. may 2021 bring you only the best.
zara: oh my sweet zara. the puka puka to my sunshine. the dearest friend of my heart. i need to take a second to really sit with yours, because i don't know if i can fully articulate how much you mean to me as a friend. even though i'm in and out of twitter, i feel like you are a friend who has really managed to stick with me through the times. you're important to me in ways that are hard for me to articulate, because i think you're genuinely one of the sweetest, kindest, and most talented people that i've ever had the pleasure of knowing. i adore you endlessly, and i'm so glad for all the coincidences and stars aligning that allowed us to meet, and that i still get to have you in my life. you are someone where i think i will literally fight and suplex everything in the world that could cause you harm, and i would do so without hesitation. i know that there are some days that are harder than others, and days that emotions get cloudy, but i just want you to know that i unflinchingly love you always, and i'm so happy whenever i even think of you. you bring a smile to my face without even trying, and i think that's also the kind of influence that you have on the world. i don't say it enough, but i love you a whole lot, and i'd do anything for you. thank you for staying with me this long, and i hope that we're together for a longer time even still. may 2021 be a beautiful year for you, and bring you only sunshine and starlight.
zia: SWEET ZIA what a wild year i keep thinking about how we were so close to meeting in may in a nice little airbnb where we abducted the canadians and kept them safe in the scary california environment. WE'LL TRY AGAIN NEXT YEAR DAMMIT OR I'LL JUST SUFFER FOREVER. but in all seriousness im so glad that we're friends and that i've gotten to know you over the past couple years. you're a dear friend and i think about how blindly i kept fumbling around trying to figure out who your npcs were in redacted and how you must've enjoyed my confused stumbling. truly you hold the braincell for all of us. but i'm so glad for all the chances we've had to get cr and to chat and laugh, and i will only hope that we get more of that in the future. thank you for being my friend and for shitposting with us and also running not one but two excellent games for us this year (wow blues and redacted were the same year) and letting us into your fuckhouse. may we get to hang out more in 2021 or else i'm just going to abduct you from canada myself!!
the big not3 :manhole: (or whatever we're calling ourselves now): i'm putting another little note here for the both of you, because i just want to extend that i don't think i would've made it through this year without the two of you. without knowing that there was some place that i could literally dump every little inane thought and that you - not only you two wouldn't mind, but that you'd actually entertain me and respond to my nonsense - that's something precious and safe. because it's not me if there isn't a nerdy space to it, i've been reading articles on counterspaces and the importance of groupchats for mental health lately. and i think that ours in particular is one where i genuinely feel safe, like we can talk about anything in the world, and also dump some of the worst shitposts we've ever said, and we validate each other, and we love each other, even though sometimes we're so bad at saying it. it's that unspoken camaraderie between us that makes me just want to say that i love you both a lot, because you already beat me to sappy messages, and it's important to me that i respond in kind. thank you for being with me, and thank you for being yourselves. i'm not good at expecting things to be permanent - but i hope regardless that we're friends forever. see you in japan, probably on anna's honeymoon, after we show up to her reception in cosplay.
aki: alright you creature of absolute fucking chaos i have no idea why i always have to deal with yours being at the top. how do i count the ways that i hate you. I'M GENUINELY THINKING ABOUT HOW 2020 IS THE FIRST YEAR IN A WHILE WHERE WE HAVEN'T GOTTEN TO HANG OUT IN PERSON, and how it takes the world literally falling apart for us to not wreak havoc in one small town for a weekend. i have no idea if this is the universe's idea of balance but regardless i'm not a fan. anyway i'm not sure how to really be nice to you - it happens so rarely - but i will say again that it's fortunate that despite how much i absolutely fucking hate you, and my murderous instincts rise every time you come up in conversation - i somehow manage to love you even more than that. thank you for being in my life you gremlin flea. i don't know if gratitude is really the word that i'm looking for, but i don't know how else to articulate the feeling of knowing that there's someone in the world who i can talk to at literally time, about anything, for whatever reason, and it will almost surely spiral into either righteous indignation or laughing so hard at 3 am that we're crying from it. i think that laughter should be allowed to add years to our lives, because then you and i would certainly live forever. thank you for being the other person who also makes me spiral into a being of absolute meme shitposty destruction, because i don't know where else i'd find this kind of outlet. 2020 has been terrible, but it's also been another year of us together, so i think that's worth something. may 2021 be better, and maybe we'll descend upon the east coast before it completely fails to exist again.
al: well first i want to say that i feel like i got so much closer to you again after this year and that makes me so happy!!! it's been wonderful to get to thread with you more in murdergames - whether it be incredibly good almost a ship but not a ship cr, or when we're literally about to murder each other. the variety? we love to see it. you're always a delight to play with, whoever it is that you've got in your hands, and i feel so lucky to have been able to get cr with you!! more than that, i'm glad we finally share a canon in genshin and we're able to do a bunch of ascension screaming and woof fighting together. you're a wonderful person, al, and i'm so glad that even in a pandemic you're able to chase after what's important to you in your education and career aspirations. you're going to do amazing in everything you touch, and that's something i'm very certain of. may 2021 bless you with even greater accomplishments and celebrations ♥
alli: SPICY ALLÍ........... honestly i can't remember what it was like to not have you in servers and in our games because now that you've been with us for a while, it's confusing to think that you ever weren't with us. you bring so much laughter and joy with you into servers and games, and i'm so glad that i've had the chance to get to form cr with you over the past few murdergames!! you and siz are some of the funniest people i know, and in particular i love your dialogue and how quick some of your tags come - BUT ALSO WHEN YOU MANAGE TO STOMP ON MY HEART? i won't lie that whenever i die in mgs one of my goals is to see if i can make you cry from the letters i leave behind so now it's just fair. but really, you're such a fantastic person, and i'm so happy that we get to chat and sometimes play genshin together - and while i'm bummed i won't be around for 2 week, i'm sure the game will go great. may your 2021 be full of laughter and joy that you deserve, for all the light that you bring to us.
andie: i'm going to be honest that going from seeing you multiple times in one year to not seeing you at all has truly been a test. who else am i going to get noods with. who else am i going to spot as a weeb from a distance. who is going to have unfortunate telepathic communication in the car with me!!! i think that loss has made it all the more clear to me that i truly treasure the moments that i get with you, whether in person or over the stretch of internet between us. i know that even more than the rest of us, 2020 has been not kind to you in terms of quarantining - but (holds your hands through animal crossing) i'm glad you've made it. even if i don't always get to say it aside from the occasional shitposts in chat, i'm always here for you, and i will absolutely suplex 2021 myself if it's not nicer to you. you're amazing, andie, every single day, and when we get to meet again and it's socially safe, i will give you the biggest hug. sending you lots of love and care until that day comes! ♥
anna: ANNAPI!!!!! gods, i don't know where to start with this - but honestly i think every person needs a friend who will unapologetically call them out on their shit, and roast them with only the best intentions, and i think that for me, a lot of the time, that friend is you. i don't know if i've told you this but i think about you lightly making fun of my revelations in therapy a lot - because it really puts it into perspective for me that it's okay for me to talk about. it's validating in a way that i know that you aren't being mean, and i will cut through the tsun layers to know that it's how you show you care. and i think that you do this with a lot of things, to the point that i love that you are the buttercup of our powerpuff trio. i love you a lot, annapi, and it's crazy to me that we've only really been stuck together for almost two years now. i think that we have somehow managed to learn way too much about each other in that time but it's fine, that's friendship. it feels like every day that we get to talk is a blessing, and that's why no matter what day it is, i know that i'll get to laugh at least a few times. i don't know how many people get to say that about their quarantine existence, that they get to know for a fact that they get to spend at least little slices of time everyday laughing with someone they adore - but i do. in the coming year, i obviously hope that we get to hang out in person - i think that's the least that we're owed - but no matter what happens, i'm sure that it'll be something fun and full of light. but in general, thank you for another year together, and i'm so grateful that we got to spend it together. you're stuck with me for a long time, but i hope that your 2021 is wonderful enough to make up for that. also before i forget there's another note at the end for you, so scroll down to read it.
ara: thinks about all the times that we said that we hate each other over the past couple of months. (gently wipes those from the board) anyway- no i'm just kidding sdlkfjsdf. even every time that i said that i hate you it was with so much affection because i couldn't stand the sheer romance of what we were creating. I KEEP THINKING ABOUT HOW BADLY WE WANTED TO DO ROMANTIC STABS AND THEN WE MANAGED TO FOREGO THE STABS PART BUT WE GOT ROMANCE??? HOW DID THIS HAPPEN TO US, ARA, WE'RE GOOD PEOPLE. but okay wipes tears sdlkfj let me just say that - for one, thank you, for apparently proving me wrong when i said that soo-won was unshippable. thank you for that,, but also thank you for some incredibly good threads and absolutely fantastic writing that we got to do together this year. even with all the heartache every single tag was worth it, even if it was full of secrets and drama. you continue to hold the bearcells and the braincells for us all, and i look forward to seeing what cr we get in the future! in general, thank you for being such a supportive and fantastic friend - even though you are just as capable of chaos as the rest of us (SHINOBU TAKING? HERSELF OUT? HELLO?) i think often that you are the last sane man holding us together, or trying to encourage more chaos and letting us run wild. either way, we'd be lost without you! thank you for being such a fantastic friend, ara, and i hope to see you again in 2021 when we will undoubtedly give you more child leashes to hold.
ari: SWEET SWEET ARI, i'm so glad that another year has passed since we've gotten to be friends because that's simply more time that i've gotten to spend with you. it's so wild to me that it's so long ago now since we got to meet up in new york and eat some of the wildest and also best ice cream i've had. i know that this year has also given you a fair number of trials, even in relation to everyone else, and i just wanted to say that you're a rock star for handling all of it. i hope that life deals you a kinder hand soon, because for all the sweetness and care that you show others, i think that you deserve some returned to you. thank you for all the fantastic threads that we've had (LET USAGI FIND LOVE) and also all the links you yeet my way that make me smile sdlkjf. i hope that 2021 gives you more reasons to smile too, and i'm just counting myself lucky that i get to spend more days with a friend like you at my side
becks: BECKS THIS YEAR HAS BEEN A WILD ONE, AND ALSO CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR VACCINATION!!!! i'm in tears, thank you for being the first spot of hope that maybe we'll all get on your level, but also i'm so glad that you've been safe throughout the year and i hope that you will get to continue in the comfort for your home for a while longer still. it's been a delight to get to play with you and talk with you over the course of the year, and you'll be among the first to know once i trip and fall back into the tocs trap that i ended up getting into partially because of your love for ash. you're always so engaging to thread with, and i also love the chaos that comes with your tags and your shitposts in the server. one of these days we will ship for real, and in that moment we will become so powerful that no one will be able to hold us. maybe even in 2021!! until then, i wanted to say that i'm so happy for your friendship and hope that we will continue to be friends for a long time!
blair: DARLING BLAIR!!! well first i want to say that i miss being in a game with you - but that doesn't stop me from enjoying secondhand everything that you post on your plurk. i'm so glad that you and kosy are harming each other regularly now, because that's what friendship is truly about. but i also want to say that i'm really grateful that we're still in touch after all this time, and i'm really glad that you're in my life. whether it be when we're rping stonks - who are truly goals - or just talking about genshin or enstars, i'm so glad when we get to chat. even though i TRULY wish that i could actually play genshin with you but that's waiting on whenever they open up the servers. you're a fun, engaging person who is also an incredible writer, and you always manage to bring your characters to life wherever they are and wherever you take them. i treasure your friendship after all these years - we've really known each other for a while, wow - and i consider myself lucky to get to know you for even longer. may your 2021 bless you with unbreakable wifi and everything you could ever want!
boba: honestly i can't believe that madeon was one of the last concerts that i went to before quarantine and that still might've been in 2019 and i don't even remember - but boba i love and miss you so dearly!! so much of this year has been peppered with our chances to talk with each other, whether it be trading links about madeon's crazy conspiracy treasure hunt or you helping with the slow but sure descent i've made into fate/. you're a friend that i've had for such a long time now, and i treasure your presence every single time i get the honor of being in it. you're funny, personable, straight to the point, and i love hearing your insights about literally anything. we need to have a talk about fe3h one of these days too since you're making your way through that. you're a wonderful friend and i love you dearly, and i'm so glad i get to make it to 2021 with you. i hope that the new year brings us together again soon!
britt: GODS I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!! AAAAAAAA i just got to your name and immediately had to touch the ground because i thought about how we were supposed to hang out that day before lockdown......... when will we go eat delicious food, when will we go outlet shopping, when will we go on all the adventures we're meant to go on! it's been a hard year without you britt, and i dearly miss seeing you more regularly. i think of you every time i wander in the direction of coco ichibanya, but i also am glad that we've been able to stay in touch with the murder circuit, even if it's just us stabbing each other (sometimes literally?) with soo-won and yona. it was so good to get to be your castmate again, and it's always a blessing to be able to write with you considering that you have such an insane talent for being able to harm people. i know that no matter where you are, you're hurting people in the best ways, and being an even better friend than that. i hope that we get to hang out again soon, because i too need my dose of being with britt. see you in 2021 or i will actually turn into dust trying!!
cola: nothing will ever be funnier than you and escha not realizing that you could've had an ot3 until nearly a year later, i just need to get that out of the way because i just started to smile thinking about it - but also that's just the sort of response you get out of people, cola! you make them smile, because you're a sweet soul with a fantastic knack for comedic timing even if you might not realize. you always come in so excitedly about homewrecking or spamming your emote in the redacted server, and it would always manage to startle a laugh out of me. you're such a wonderful person to talk to and thread with, and i'm so lucky that we've gotten to know each other over the past two years - wow two years!! i know that covid knocked all of us on our asses academically, but i'm so glad that you made a choice to take care of yourself, because looking out for yourself is truly the most important thing that you can do. whenever you're up for tackling school and life again, i'm sure you'll do great, and everyone will be shaking upon your triumphant return. i hope 2021 gives you a much better hand than we've all been dealt, and i look forward to your success!
crystal: CRYSTAL I FEEL LIKE WE HAVE GOTTEN SO MUCH CLOSER OVER THE COURSE OF THIS YEAR SLKDJF and i am so genuinely, delightfully happy over it. i love being blessed with cr with you in games, because you have a love for your characters that is like. wildly contagious. i think sometimes about how you were worried since hansa is a bit more obscure than your other choices and yet we all came out deeply stanning this robot priest simply because you played him so dynamically and were so excited about sharing him with us, and i'm so glad that you did!! i admire your ability to take that passion for all your characters - hansa, illumi, anaido, lovecraft - and just generating so much content for them that your account shows up immediately in a google search. you are so powerful. but you truly brighten up my days so many times, and i love how excited you get about cr and the people that you play with, and the characters that they play too. it genuinely makes me feel honored when i can manage to get you excited for something the same way that i get excited for something you love. may 2021 give us a bunch more to be excited about!!
dearest: well here we are again, as we are every year.
it's hard for me to find words that i haven't said before, but i suppose it's not that difficult because i think it's also worth saying that i will endlessly admire you, and everything that you manage to do. we've known each other for so long now, and it's so wild to think that we've gone through high school, college, college again, and then now we're both in our adult lives and managing full time jobs?? hello? and yet when i think about on all those years together, it makes me smile, knowing that our friendship has been a constant. it's a fortunate and lucky thing, to know that there's someone that i've known for this long, and i think often that my life would be so different if we never met when we did. so i'm going to count my blessings, and say that i'm grateful for you this year, as i'm grateful for you every year. thank you for being my writing buddy, thank you for devouring akayona with me, thank you for also murdering with me again and i hope that you'll continue to murder with us many times in the future because i'm excited every single time i get to share something with you. it's been a wild set of years, dearest, and now we're here! i figure that 2020 has been the toughest year on record, so 2021 will hopefully be a breeze, right? regardless, i know that you've been slamming through crunch and other things, so i can only hope that a break is on the horizon for you - a very well-deserved one at that. whatever your goals and aspirations are, i know that you'll meet them - and even though this year was hardly perfect by any measure, i think that because you were the one who got through it - it was still good. i love you so much, and i will continue to love you into 2021 and beyond - may it bless you with only the best that life has to offer.
eli: first off, i just want to say that i think that being able to reach out to friends individually in the middle of a pandemic, keeping up those relationships and making sure that they know they're in your thoughts, is a blessing and a gift. it's a skill that is way too scarce, and you are one of the few masters of it in the world. i think that you're a wonderful person eli, and your type of care shines through in the way that you check in with friends, ask about their lives, and i truly admire that about you and wish i was better at it myself so i could return the favor. but i just wanted to let you know that during this year when we're all a bit more isolated, it's something that's appreciated, even if it's not always noted out loud. i love you a whole lot, and i wish that i could see you again and give you a big hug, but i just want to generally express that you're such a wonderful person and i consider myself sincerely lucky to be able to call you a friend. thank you for being a part of my life, and i love you endlessly. may 2021 be kinder, and we get to hang out more! that's the real dream but i have faith that we'll be able to make it into reality.
flurry: YOU KNOW THE WEIRDEST THING FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT IS THAT THIS TIME LAST YEAR, WE DIDN'T KNOW EACH OTHER. i only knew you by some weird moment when anna called francy by your name on accident and we just emoted in confusion sdlkfjsdf. but then i got to meet you in frac, and then get to know you more over time, and i consider myself so lucky for that opportunity. you're a great person, flurry, from the way that you're so active and fun to get cr with, but also the general chaotic and friendly energy that you bring with you wherever you go. i recognize that the first time we met, i called your characters recyclable trash, and then we just went from there!! thank you for all the laughs, the tears, and the year that i've gotten to know you. i'm so glad we were able to celebrate your second birthday together, and i will just determinedly make it so that 2021 is even better than 2020 in every way imaginable! i love talking to you and i'm so lucky that i've gotten to know you, and i look forward to more time together (you voice) wehehehe. may 2021 bring on the shitposts and chaos!
francy: if you go to bed before you read this i'm gonna be so grumpy oh my gOD franchy - but okay, i have to say, you deserve reparations for dealing with me this year. i think i've said this before, but since you're one of the people closest to me, that also makes you someone who endures me the most, and i truly think that you deserve compensation for this. i will probably buy you so many things when we go to japan - because we are going to go to japan. we're gonna go to japan, and we're going to do all the cosplays we planned, and we're going to truly cash in on every single plan that we've made, because i treasure all of them. even if it's not going to be for a while, i want you to know how much all of these things mean to me - because the idea of having things to look forward to in the future, and things that i get to share with you - as evidenced by start-up, sometimes that's literally what gets me out of bed in the mornings. you're a good friend - such a good friend that it's hard to put into words, because i know for a fact that you will do so many things for the people you love, and truly go the distance in terms of spoiling them and making sure that they're happy. so i want to do the same in return, and i will literally move heaven and earth to make sure that you're happy, whenever i can, for as long as i can. you're dear to me in ways that are hard to describe, but i know for a fact that i'm a much happier person now that i know you, and since we've gotten handcuffed together. (i say as if i did not slap the handcuffs on myself.) so all i can say is - through the ups and downs, and when life is easy breezy and also when it's not, i'm so glad that we can spend it together. i love you so much, and i hope that 2021 sets us free so we can make good on everything we intended to do and then some. you deserve it, and so i'll make sure that you get it. happy new year! and also before i forget, there's a note for you at the end, so scroll down.
freshy: BEAUTIFUL PERFECT FRESHY so honestly i feel like i should share that while it's true that i disappear from plurk for months at a time because of murder, i consider myself genuinely fortunate that i still have you as a friend even if it's just looking at each other's plurks on occasion and commenting. i like just knowing how your life is going, and hoping that it treats you well, and all the adventures you get to go on - or what fantastic thing you'll do next with your hair or nails because your aesthetic is truly top notch. yet whenever i'm just talking idly with friends and you come up in conversation, all i can do is talk uselessly about how much i love you, and how fantastic i think that you are. it's just glowing reviews all around to be honest. but you're constantly a bright spot on my timeline, and i treasure our friendship. i hope that your 2021 is only filled with more good things, and more lovingly mappa-animated jjk as the fire continues to spread across your timeline. ♥ i hope that 2021 blesses you in so many ways, including more photo op chances for your megloomy because they make my heart swell.
gigi: i'm going to be very honest with you, it's really hard for me to remember time and when things happened - but i'm pretty sure you've been in california for over a year now, right? and i remember you saying that even though shit sucks and miss rona screwed us all over - you did end up where you wanted to be at this point in your life, and for that, i'm really happy for you. i remember last christmas we got boba and just talked about life for a while, and you truly made some big transitions in your life. even though things have been going up and down - i think that you've done a more than admirable job of reaching out and grabbing exactly what you wanted. you got the job you wanted, you have an apartment with someone you love, and you have a twitter timeline full of cat photos. i say this as lovingly as possible, but you're doing LA millennial life really well LMFAO. it's been a delight to get to watch you progress through life this year, and i wish only that i could do more for you - but you're honestly doing great all your own tbh. thank you for your friendship and all the laughs, gigi, and i look forward to seeing you again in 2021! i'm certain that no matter what comes, you'll be able to claw your way to the top - but i will also still hope that the coming year is good to you in all the ways that you deserve.
jae: you know, now that i think about it, i think 2020 is genuinely going to be redeemed for me because i realized that 2020 is the year that i got to truly appreciate zenitsu. for anyone who wonders whether or not that'd be enough to keep me afloat, all i can say is that jae's zenitsu is truly one of the greatest gifts that i've ever been able to receive. in truth, i think that you have a way with your characters that is truly amazing, jae. you're so dedicated about everything that you do with them, down to the details, and i see it not only in your tl;crs that i read every single one of, but also in the way that you tag and then reveal later in your plurk that the tiny minutiae of what is or isn't said is so meaningful. you've done it with just about every single characters that you've played since i met you, and it's something in your writing that i find so enchanting and captivating - sort of like a magic trick where you reveal everything at the end and my jaw drops in astonishment. not to mention you're an incredible friend who i've been lucky to know for over a decade now - how!! - and i still hold onto my feelings of admiration for you that i've held since we met. jae is truly so cool, and i hope that 2021 is better for you all around - and you get to sleep and relax more!! thank you for all that you do, because i don't know if i ever express it to you enough.
jan: MY SWEETEST JAN!!!! MY BELOVED JAN!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaAAAAAA i don't even know how to start this one sdlkfjsf i'm also going to be honest that given how long we've known each other, i also have no fucking clue how much i have left to say that i haven't said before, it's really funny. but okay let's see, let me at least try - this year i wanted to say congratulations and also thank you for running your first murdergame! jan as a mod is so fucking powerful, and now i am determined to also get to mod with you one day. but more than that, and the endless threads that we managed to rack up together, i want to articulate how grateful i am to have you in my life after all this time. it's so wild. i'm glad that we also finally share an obsession in genshin, and i get to see how intense you are up close in the way that you grind for artifacts and leave us all in the dust. jan is the true dps. it's that sort of passion that you manage to conjure up, and the way that i watch as you manage to prove your skill in literally everything that you pick up, for no reason other than you love the source material that much. it's something about you that i find genuinely impressive every time, even after all these years. i don't know if you realize the force of nature that you are, but as keeper of the braincells, i admire you constantly and i am so glad to have you in my life. thank you for another wonderful year together, jan, and i look forward to all the rest that we're going to have, because at this point you're never going to shake me. i love you, and may your new year grant you the artifacts and boss drops you want! and also other good fortune, yea.
kami: OH MISS SPORTS PROTAG OF MY LIFE HOW DEARLY I MISS YOU!!!!! kami it's so wild to me because now i just realized in horror that i'm not sure when the last time i saw you was? that's scary, and i absolutely don't like it at all, lays on the ground. your presence has been dearly missed, and i wish i could articulate all the ways in which i miss hanging out with you but there's just way too many to list. i know that it's been a really wild for you with miss rona and so much uncertainty, i hope that you're doing as well as humanly can be, but mostly i just wanted to say that i hope that the new year is kinder and i get to see you again soon. i still love seeing you on twitter and all the haikyuu that you put on my timeline, it truly feels like coming home and the constant deluge of hinata lovemail hours always makes me smile. i hope that we get to see each other again in the new year and hang out properly, even if it's just sitting around and watching anime and enjoying each other's company again. i hope that you get a lot of good fortune in the new year, and that it blesses you with everything you could want and more ♥ love you lots and hopefully see you soon
kat: I CONSTANTLY THINK ABOUT HOW FINDING YOU IN THE HYPMIC FANDOM WAS ONE OF THE WILDEST THINGS but also that i'm so glad that i did! over the year i've only gotten to admire your ability to churn out fics like no one's business, and be gently astonished at the sheer quality of every single one. your dedication to the gendice agenda is truly admirable and i applaud you every single day for what you contribute to the fandom. in general, i also think myself so lucky to be able to count on someone so smart, so capable, so kind, and so skilled among the people that i get to chat with about the craft and process of writing fanfic. you supported me so much when i was even just thinking about putting my project out there again, and i can't thank you enough for that. in all the years that i've known you, you've always been so encouraging and sweet and kind kat, and i'm glad that no matter what, the years will never be able to take that from you. may 2021 give you even more good, exciting things that make your heart jump like a gambler and a liar ♥
kes: KES I ALREADY MISS YOU!!!! it's so wild to me that fanime 2019 feels so fucking far away now, and i miss hanging out with you so much even though so much of it was also apologizing for the chaos that you had to endure. even still, i just wanted to say thank you for all the times that you spare a word for me or just chat with me about anything, or even leave me fanart that makes me ♥♥ i appreciate it so much, and it always brightens up my day when we get to talk to each other. whether it be about dreams or your sheep or what you're working on translating, i'm so glad when you share it with me because it makes me happy to know that you're happy. i hope that we get to see each other again in 2021, but even if we don't, i hope that so many good things come your way.
kia: honestly if anyone deserves to literally dropkick 2020 in the face, i would say it'd be you. even with as difficult as this year has been, you made it, kia! and i'm so, so glad. so i hope that your reparations come in the form of an ssr in fgo tonight, but until then, i just want to express how lucky i am to have you in my life. you're bright, brilliant, talented, patient, and so many other wonderful things that it's hard to find words for them all. whether it be the sheer amount of fic that you manage to write - i am deeply impressed everyday of my life - or the way that you throw your all into murdergames, you really manage to take the world by storm. i'm so glad that we were able to play together in a game again after all these years, and i only hope that we'll get to play together some more in the future! even before redacted started, i remember running around excitedly chattering about your return and how excited i was for my friends to be friends with each other. i hope that you managed to feel at home with us too! thank you for being my friend all these years, kia, and i'm so glad that we're still together. may 2021 bring you endless blessings, and also diluc. take it easy, and treat yourself to kindness and relaxation soon!
kori: i miss you, kori! i keep thinking about how as soon as miss rona disappears, i would love to see you again if you could ever visit us in LA or i might finally head over to your part of the country for a con or two, just because i want to hang out with you again. i haven't seen you since your haircut and all the different eras of hair dye, and i feel like i must behold your truly phenomenal aesthetic for myself in person one of these days. even though we don't share fandoms as much anymore, i still treasure all the times we do get to chat, whether it be about hypmic or enstars or just anything else. you're dear to my heart, and i know that it's been a pretty wild year for all of us, and life keeps handing you ups and downs. but i also wanted to express that i still support you, and i read all your tweets, and i would just give you the biggest hug if i could. you're still so dazzling and smart and talented and funny, and i hope that 2021 gives you a chance to shine like you deserve.
kosy: MY BAE, MY DARLING, MY SWEETEST HEART!!!!! well for one, i just want to say - i'm glad that you're back. i'm glad that you've managed to find your groove and rhythm in games, and i'm so glad that even though i have a tendency to pull a disappearing act for murdergames, you are still here when i return. obviously life comes first, but i'm also not going to hide that i missed you while you were gone. even as you try to enable me to trail after you into your games, i just find myself smiling because i love every single conversation that we get to have, even if a lot of the time i'm also enabling you into a new canon that i want you to play with me sldkfjsdf. BUT LISTEN, I'M GREEDY, AND I LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH YOU!!! you're funny, smart, sweet, and one of my favorite people on this planet. thank you for everything that you've done for me over this year, whether it be drawing a piece of art that i want to FRAME AND SHOVE MY FACE INTO, or just sparing a kind word. it delights me to see you running around with your enstars and your wizards that are doomed to die soon. seeing you happy just manages to make me so unfathomably happy. even if we don't get to share all that many games in the future, i just want to say that my life is better when you're in it, and i'm so glad we're still together after all these years. may 2021 be a beautiful year for you, and bring you endless happiness! and also some sleep! please sleep!
kyuu: the way i'm like 'damn i hope that kyuu got something to cleanse the salt before 2020 ends' but i'm also like honestly ending 2020 salty would also be a decent way to sum up this year alkjdfads.f THAT SAID I HOPE REGARDLESS THAT YOU WERE ABLE TO HAVE A NICE RELAXING LAST DAY OF DUMPSTERFIRE BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE!! i'm so glad that we were able to play together this year kyuu, and i am always in awe of the sheer amount of heartbreak you can leave behind you what the fuck. thank you for running crau this year to give us all a place to totally lose our fucking minds, and i am genuinely fearful of the next time you mod because of what you're capable of. maybe one day we'll even get to mod together!! you're always such a great friend, and a gift to have in games. i hope that 2021 delivers all the tropes you could possibly want, and that we can play a few together too!!
lisa: LISA MADE IT TO MURDER, LISA MADE IT TO MURDER!!!!! i'm thinking about how it's been a literal year since we first had that discussion in an ice cream shop when i was visiting, but i'm so so so happy that you finally made it - and yOU DID SO GOOD IN YOUR FIRST MURDERGAME, IT'S WILD. you did so much research for all of us, it was delightful. and then you lived the dream of being scapegoated, i think about how jealous everyone was and it's so funny to me. i know quarantine has been hellish and 2020 has been hellish but i'm so glad that i got an opportunity to hang out with you again - albeit virtually. tagging with you and watching you get your proverbial sea legs in the murdergame circuit was a delight, and i can only hope you'll continue to join us in the future. you still bring the same fun, amazing, infectious chaotic energy as you did in recolle, when one of my fondest memories is still arm tots as well as bucky suplexing a cow. wild times. you bring a party with you wherever you go lisa, and i admire your skill whether it's in truly wild writing or your art and your ability to deep dive into everything you do. may 2021 set you free so you can stretch your limbs as far out as you want again!!
marie: HONESTLY MARIE, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. and i just couldn't let time pass without acknowledging it. you are one of the most hardworking, incredible, and just - truly admirable people that i know. whether it be your job, your home improvement saga (when will you have an hgtv show i am waiting), or your writing, you are always on the go, and you know what works for you - and i think that genuine act of knowing yourself? that's something amazing. i know that 2020's been a wild ride of ups and downs for all of us, but i think it's especially been something for you - and i hope that when 2021 and miss rona both grant us freedom, you'll be able to stretch your legs and take up all the space you rightfully deserve. because you work so hard, i honestly expect the world to crumble at your feet from how powerful you are. i hope that you manage to accomplish every happiness and i also hope that i will get to be there with you. thank you for your SHEER ACCOMPLICE-LEVEL SKILL in getting me into fate/, and all the threads that we've had in games since then, and all the threads we will surely have in the future. whether it be in writing or as a friend, i think that i'm so lucky to know you, and i deeply look forward to more time together in the coming years. please move to california i'm waiting
mira: one of these days i'm going to get all your merlin lore, i will just sit down and ask you to go off like a netflix comedy special and i will enjoy every single moment- bUT UNTIL THEN!!! given how wildly i appear and disappear on plurk, i just want to say that i'm grateful for your friendship. it took me a second to realize that we've known each other since, what, cerealia?? when you were playing grell? was it even before then? well regardless it's wild for me to think that we've been friends for so long, and i can always count on you to always have impeccable taste in characters as well as tropes. the number of times that we just clutch each other's hands and bemoan the tropes we want to play - i feel it in my heart. thank you for being a steadfast friend through all these years and i'm so glad that i've gotten to spend another year with you, even if this year has been a dumpsterfire. may next year be better, and i look forward to spending more time with you!!
nat: 2020 is a dumpsterfire and i would like for it to end for a lot of reasons, but even though the new year is coming, i would like to wish for not only the new year to be kind to you, but every single day that follows after. nat you're one of the most hardworking people that i know, and you put so much of yourself into everything that you do. you care so much for your friends, you get so passionate about your interests and animation, and you will truly put your heart into what falls into your hands. even though i know that this year has been wild with moving and also the hurricane that got thrown at you, i also truly believe that someone like you - someone who is so sincere, who is so considerate, and so dear - will be able to succeed in the future. i just hope that life makes it easier for you, and if there's anything more that your friends can do for you, i hope you'll tell us too. regardless, thank you for all the chats that we've gotten to have over this year, and i hope that we'll be able to see each other again soon! we'll get enough dumplings for you me and gigi and make a day out of it. your presence is one that i'm glad that i've gotten a few times this year, but i do wish that we could've gotten to hang out even more than that. i love you a whole lot, and i look forward to a much better 2021 - even if i have to wrestle it down and make it be good to you with my own two hands.
nu: 💞💞💞💞 NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU 💞💞💞💞 - okay at this point i think i just get a kick out of knowing that you're absolutely making a face and want to tell me to die sldkjfsdflsjkdf BUT ALSO MY LOVEMAIL IS TRUE!!! IT'S SO TRUE!!!!!! i keep thinking about how we didn't even know each other before like - what. months ago? we've only known each other for half a year and i am so sure that you hate me and it's so funny sdljkfsdf. BUT LISTEN, I THINK THAT'S JUST THE LEVEL OF FRIENDSHIP THAT WE HIT INSTANTLY!!!! I ACTIVATE YOUR FIGHT OR FIGHT INSTINCT, AND I ACCEPT THIS. because in all honesty, i really, really am so glad that i've met you. thank you for always making me laugh, and even though we make jokes about you stealing my homework in murdergames, i also think that it wouldn't feel right if we didn't get ride or die cr. i will be truly confused when we are no longer able to somehow fall into incredibly close cr by week 1. but i'm thankful for crau for bringing us together, because i also treasure your friendship when we're not literally planning murder together. you're someone who is so smart, who is so resourceful, who is so hilarious and kind even though you're a total tsundere about it. thank you for being your straightforward self because i love talking about literally anything with you. it took the literal world falling apart for us to meet, and yet i find myself grateful because you're one of the greatest gifts that i was able to receive this year. thank you for being my friend, nu, even if you will deny it forever. i'm grateful for your presence, and i hope that you understand we'll be stuck together for a long time to come.
pixi: i think about how keqing blesssed you for the new year and honestly i'm so glad that you're getting to enjoy having a 5* character sdlkfjsdf I TRULY HOPE THAT YOU MANAGE TO GET BETTER MATS AND ARTIFACTS IN THE NEW YEAR, MAYBE THAT'S WHAT MY HOPE WILL BE FOR YOU LMFAO but okay no in all seriousness i'm so glad that we're friends, pixi. i'm grateful for you even though we hilariously are not able to remember when we met sometimes - i feel like it's cerealia, i really do - but i think it also says something about how comfortable it is to think about having you in my life for even longer than that. i appreciate the effort and hard work that you put into everything, and also the camaraderie of having someone else go through Academia(tm) even during this time. you really throw yourself into everything that you love pixi, whether that be your fanfic works or your love for childe genshin impact or when you flood your timeline with ice skating - and i enjoy every single moment, and want to be in the front row seat every time. thank you for being a blessing in my life, and i hope you get many blessings in 2021 in turn. (including artifacts and better weapon drops)
ray: RAY IT'S SUCH A WILD THING TO LOOK ON THE FACT THAT WE MET IRL OVER A YEAR AGO and we were supposed to meet again in may but it's fine, that's just been pushed off for the future. obviously i wish miss rona didn't get in the way, but i'm still so glad for the times that we get to spend together in the digital sphere too. thank you for playing kara and lili with me in crau as they managed to accomplish so many wild relationship hurdles and somehow end up being Romance(tm) despite all expectations. sometimes you play characters who are perfect together even tho you never fuckin expected it i guess!! you're always so fun to write with, with the level of emotion and heartache that you put into everything, and a joy to plot with. i look forward to seeing what other types of cr we get in the future too! i hope that 2021 is a blessed time and you have a great time modding too. i'm rooting for you, and i look forward to having another year of friendship! ♥
sib: so you sent me this really sweet message earlier today and i've been too busy working on these to really respond sO I'M GOING TO RESPOND HERE LMFAOSDLKFJ. and it's to say this: sib, i'm really glad we're friends. i think that there are moments where friendship can get rough, and i've got my own flaws of being too direct and confrontational, but you've never held it against me and we've always been able to work everything out. i think it's for those reasons, that we're able to talk about stuff and we're both willing to discuss blips with each other that we're going to be friends for a really long time - because i do think that friendship takes work and, i just want you to know that even while i say this, i don't think that friendship with you is hard at all. i think that i'm lucky to get to call you a friend, because not only do you gas me up like no other like wow i think i've gotten an ego just from how nice you are to me, but also because you yourself are smart, funny, and i'm not joking that i'd literally watch a netflix special of you just giving your opinions on other people's characters because you are so funny. thank you for being in my life, and even though i know that this year has been a weird one for a lot of us, i do want to articulate that i think that you've been doing well to get through it. i love you a lot, and i hope that we get to hang out irl again soon - but until then, thank you for being someone i can talk about otomes with, and someone that i can talk to about so many different things past that. may 2021 be better for you, in every single way!
sipp: i think about how you said that you wanted to get more cr in redacted than we had in crau and i'm just like well! mission accomplished, huh!! and i feel so glad for it - because you're always a delight in whatever game we share, sipp. you're involved, friendly, sincere, and share so much with every single person that you interact with. i love getting to talk with you in chat and recount stories, even if some of your stories make me want to leap to your defense and dunk every single person who's ever been mean to you. because you are so open-hearted, so welcoming, and so hardworking and kind that i think that you only deserve the best at all times. getting to have closer cr with you and more time to talk with you and absorb all your meta only made me even happier. thank you for making my experience in the game so good, but also just for being a great friend during redacted and every game that came before it. you're someone who can truly affect the mood of the room once you enter, and always for the better. i hope that your 2021 is a good one and you get more time to rest and relax!
sisi: well hello my enfp education sister in arms - in all honesty sisi, you're one of the few people who, when i talk about things like education or extroversion or wanting to be productivity or losing my mind in quarantine, you're one of the few people who i truly trust to just... get it. to understand what a fire this year has been, and the specific way it's been hell for people like us, and that's why i want to just hold your hand and say - i'm glad we're both still here. i'm glad we made it this far, and i'm glad that we made it at least part of the way together. even through all the aches of not seeing the people that we want to see, and not having our passions to fall back on, we've found new ones - and i think that it's a testament to your strength. when i think about 2021 and the hopes that it'll bring, i hope that you'll also take some of this kindness you're learning to extend to yourself, and you bring it forward with you. i hope that the new year is infinitely better than this one, and i hope that you will take the next steps with confidence and hope. you'll get back to where you want to be in no time, i'm sure, but until then, i'm glad we've met it to this point together. take care, and have a peaceful new year!
siz: honestly let's start with thanks for being one of the funniest people i've ever met, because i can't count the number of times that i've just burst into laughter since you joined us in the murder circuit. i told alli the same thing but i genuinely feel like you've always been with us, and i can't think of a time in which you weren't. thank you for always being someone who works so hard with us, siz, whether it be in your activity in us getting stuff done, or just really grinding into the shitpost of things. i admire your work ethic and your ability to help organize and lead, and i'm so bummed that i won't be able to make it to 2 week but i'm sure that your modding efforts will go great and i hope that i get the chance to play in one of your games in the future. but in general, i'm so glad that i've gotten to know you and play with you more, because writing with you and chatting with you are both incredible joys. i love reading your meta and watching you go through character thought processes, because i always find it so interesting. i hope that we get to continue to play together in the coming year, and i hope that 2021 brings you countless treasures and joys!
snow: SNOW IT'S BEEN SO GOOD TO HAVE YOU IN MY RP SPHERE AGAIN!! i'm so glad that you were able to join us with frac and then even moreso in redacted! you did so good for your first murdergame, bravo in your murder and getting away with it! i look forward to seeing you as a mod too - i think you'll have a lot of fun and i'm cheering you on! i appreciated all the threads that we got to have and your eagerness and dealing with me running toward you for threads just because i wanted to get to know the infamous hua cheng even more. i look forward to threading with you even more in future games you join us in, and i'm glad that you were able to join our little party. congratulations again on your engagement, and i hope that you have a truly blessed 2021 that manages to knock 2020 out of the water because you deserve it!
teej: THANKS FOR KILLING ME IN 2020, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD START THERE BECAUSE IT WAS A WILD RIDE TO BE IN MURDERGAMES FOR YEARS AND I WOULD ONLY DIE WHEN I PUT A HIT ON MYSELF LMFAO. but in all seriousness thank you for also running crau in 2020 and giving us a home to scream in the chaos of the pandemic and the quarantine, it was truly a blessed chance for all our shitposts to fester and for us to have a truly chaotic time. you did a great job running the game and i'm sure you'll do great running spring, i'm so excited. you're always so fun to thread with teej, and i'm glad that we've also been friends for this long since even before recolle holy shit. the entire time you've always been one of the most earnest, straightforward, and fantastic people i've ever gotten to meet. thank you for being a steadfast friend with ideas that are both evil and hilarious, and i look forward to the countless ways you can bad end mgs in the future. i love having you in my life and want to thank you for letting me be in yours - 2020 has definitely been a year of wild rides and transitions, and i know that your future is bright! may 2021 kick even more ass.
tsubo: SWEET DARLING PERFECT TSUBO!!!!!!!! goodness gracious - i think often about how sometimes i disappear off plurk for months at a time and then come back for a few months at a time, but every time i do, i am lucky enough to catch you being thoughtful, encouraging, and uplifting to every single person you meet. i think that you're someone that not a lot of people get to meet - and i wonder if i've said this before - but i think that you still, even in a hickety hecking pandemic and trashfire year that is 2020, manage to be a bright spot. and i don't say this to put any kind of pressure on you, because i think it's something about you that comes naturally. i think that you share so much warmth, and kindness, and sincerity with people that it flows out like a fountain, and i always find myself bashful and touched in the face of it. i think often that just talking to you for a few moments can make me smile all day, and i'm lucky for it. i know for a fact that there's no chance i'm the only person you make feel that way. i only hope that in the future, we as your friends can make you feel that way too, because you deserve to be cared for, and to have all the fortune that you bless others with. i love you so much tsubo and i probably don't say it enough, but i do hope that your 2021 is full of light and good things, because if anyone's earned it, it's you.
ty: TY YOU'RE ONE OF THE FEW PEOPLE THAT I ACTUALLY GOT TO SEE A FEW TIMES THIS YEAR AND I CAN SAY FOR A FACT THAT THOSE TIMES WERE NOT NEARLY ENOUGH!!! i feel like i've withered away a little with not being able to see you in person, and we'll just have to make up for it in 2021. i know that it's been a wild year in a couple of different ways, between pandemic hitting during blues, or all the nonsense rl shit we've been dealing with, and all the transitions before then and now - but i just want to say that i think you are still one of the most resilient, steadfast, and resourceful people that i know. i think that you are someone who works hard through everything, and i can only hope that 2021 will make it so that you can rest, so that you can be taken care of for a little while instead of always having to take care of everyone else. i love you dearly, and i'm so glad that you're in my life, and after watching you work so hard for years on end, i'm ready to fund your vacation myself tbh. thank you for everything you've done and i hope that in the future we as your friends can do more for you too. treat yourself in the new year, and i hope 2021 treats you well too!!
yaywon: (goofy voice) aw shucks......... honestly i don't know what words can be said about you yaywon because you are a fucking hurricane and i love you so much it's hard to articulate in the english language LMFAO. I FEEL LIKE YOU ARE JUST ONE OF THE MOST CHAOTIC PEOPLE IVE EVER KNOWN AND THAT'S SAYING SOMETHING WHEN AKI IS RIGHT THERE - but i also admire the way that you literally storm into people's lives and deposit heaps of validation and kindness to all of them. it's honestly very okuni of you, now that i think about it. but your plurks always swell up in comments because you are such an open, inviting, hilarious person, and you always engage with people outside of that too. you're someone where i genuinely feel like you have an investment in my life, and those are the types of people that are hard to come by. i'm invested in yours too. i'm invested in your happiness, and your joy, and your hopes and your dreams bc i hope all of them come true. because we're two but we're one, and i'm so, so lucky to know you. may 2021 bring you only the best.
zara: oh my sweet zara. the puka puka to my sunshine. the dearest friend of my heart. i need to take a second to really sit with yours, because i don't know if i can fully articulate how much you mean to me as a friend. even though i'm in and out of twitter, i feel like you are a friend who has really managed to stick with me through the times. you're important to me in ways that are hard for me to articulate, because i think you're genuinely one of the sweetest, kindest, and most talented people that i've ever had the pleasure of knowing. i adore you endlessly, and i'm so glad for all the coincidences and stars aligning that allowed us to meet, and that i still get to have you in my life. you are someone where i think i will literally fight and suplex everything in the world that could cause you harm, and i would do so without hesitation. i know that there are some days that are harder than others, and days that emotions get cloudy, but i just want you to know that i unflinchingly love you always, and i'm so happy whenever i even think of you. you bring a smile to my face without even trying, and i think that's also the kind of influence that you have on the world. i don't say it enough, but i love you a whole lot, and i'd do anything for you. thank you for staying with me this long, and i hope that we're together for a longer time even still. may 2021 be a beautiful year for you, and bring you only sunshine and starlight.
zia: SWEET ZIA what a wild year i keep thinking about how we were so close to meeting in may in a nice little airbnb where we abducted the canadians and kept them safe in the scary california environment. WE'LL TRY AGAIN NEXT YEAR DAMMIT OR I'LL JUST SUFFER FOREVER. but in all seriousness im so glad that we're friends and that i've gotten to know you over the past couple years. you're a dear friend and i think about how blindly i kept fumbling around trying to figure out who your npcs were in redacted and how you must've enjoyed my confused stumbling. truly you hold the braincell for all of us. but i'm so glad for all the chances we've had to get cr and to chat and laugh, and i will only hope that we get more of that in the future. thank you for being my friend and for shitposting with us and also running not one but two excellent games for us this year (wow blues and redacted were the same year) and letting us into your fuckhouse. may we get to hang out more in 2021 or else i'm just going to abduct you from canada myself!!
the big not3 :manhole: (or whatever we're calling ourselves now): i'm putting another little note here for the both of you, because i just want to extend that i don't think i would've made it through this year without the two of you. without knowing that there was some place that i could literally dump every little inane thought and that you - not only you two wouldn't mind, but that you'd actually entertain me and respond to my nonsense - that's something precious and safe. because it's not me if there isn't a nerdy space to it, i've been reading articles on counterspaces and the importance of groupchats for mental health lately. and i think that ours in particular is one where i genuinely feel safe, like we can talk about anything in the world, and also dump some of the worst shitposts we've ever said, and we validate each other, and we love each other, even though sometimes we're so bad at saying it. it's that unspoken camaraderie between us that makes me just want to say that i love you both a lot, because you already beat me to sappy messages, and it's important to me that i respond in kind. thank you for being with me, and thank you for being yourselves. i'm not good at expecting things to be permanent - but i hope regardless that we're friends forever. see you in japan, probably on anna's honeymoon, after we show up to her reception in cosplay.